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| Thursday, October 2nd, 2003 | | 9:44 pm |
tootles.
so this is about all i've got to say. a little song for all you LJ'ers who've noted me an read my LJ through the months. 'Goodbye LiveJournal' sung to the tune of 'Goodbye Cruel World' by Pink Flod, from the sensational album, The Wall. "Goodbye, LiveJournal, I'm leaving you today. Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye. Goodbye all you people, There's nothing you can say, To make me change my mind. Goodbye." twas nice knowin all ya. Blessings. signing off. ~Casey | | Thursday, September 25th, 2003 | | 10:23 pm |
i have a great job making good money. i have a great place to live with cheap rent. i have musicians to jam with. i'm surrounded by positive, Godly, awesome people. so why am i so lonely? ~Casey | | Wednesday, September 24th, 2003 | | 9:56 pm |
something written a while ago
"you make me hate every moment ive been alive... ...cause i didnt spend all of it loving you" why do i want this so bad yet not allow myself to give in? i know htis hurt will resurface even though all is forgiven my heart says i still want you still need you and you're still the only one who makes me smile what would i give to hold you so close like i always dreamed to hear those words softly whispered in my ear to have your face inches from mine staring into eyes that last forever that reach to depths i've never seen "that's awesome. i'm happy for you." so let's talk let's write let's forget all about this fight well i'm not sure if that's something i can do when all i'm left holding is less than a piece of you "Pack it up boys, we're pulling out / of this hellhole and all it stands for / how could I ever really begin / to say I'm sorry to you" | | Monday, September 8th, 2003 | | 9:07 pm |
the sweetness
so i'm all settled in and got the net back up. i know all of you were fretting because i never update :-D anyway, life is going good, i'm working insane hours sometimes, but it's all good, i enjoy the paychecks. so yeah, i have 444 playsw on mp3.com... sweet! anyway, that's it for me. boo yah. ~Casey | | Wednesday, July 30th, 2003 | | 12:20 am |
jemmifer, i owned you! :-D ~Casey | | Tuesday, July 29th, 2003 | | 8:01 pm |
poll
i broke 400 plays on my mp3 website, and to celebrate i'm gonna upload 3 new songs. if you haven't checked out the ones up there, DO IT NOW!!! muahahaha anyway, i want to let you, my faithful readers decide which new ones go up... so if you want to vote on which three you'd like to hear, stick the numbers of the songs in the comment box. 1. still left with that taste in my mouth - a brooding, dark song about questioning your faith. a nice melodic out break in the middle. 2. so this is life - my 'sell out' song. a sad sounding 'pop' song about life's trials and temptations. 3. can i ever forget? - a cool electronic track, reminiscent of NIN/ a bit dark sounding. (instrumental) 4. die like Van Goh (alone) - a song about being alone (instrumental) 5. hope - a nice simple melodic electronic song. i utilized a bunch of acoustic drums in it to make it sound more organic and less electronic. (instrumental) 6. time to forget - calm, mostly guitar driven. (instrumental) 7. i miss you (voice version) - an acoustic number written for a girl i was dating. i gave this to her on her birthday, after removing the weird clip in the background. (instrumental) 8. the flexing glass - a friend of mine asked me "Is this static x?" to which i kindly replied "No, that's me." my first attempt at the 'dueling guitars' sound. so there ya have it. take your pic, and which ever 3 get the most votes i'll post. thanks and God bless ~Casey | | 3:58 pm |
there are few things in this world that are worse than an artist with no ambition. i mean really. i don't have the ambition to do art. so really i don't have much ambition to do anyhting. cuz i don't do anyhting but art. heh. oh geez ~Casey | | Monday, July 28th, 2003 | | 10:42 pm |
please tell me you're joking
falling upon deaf ears ~as i lay dying the sound of silent voices surveying my thoughts regularity defining perfection neither sorrow nor contentment whispering emptiness, frail words collapse my weight only stirs the ground how long can i hold your hand as you walk over graves you search for tears of compassion yet find the comfort of winter reassurance dead like the falling leaves losing hope in your unchanging ways all of my strength cannot save you if you are unwilling to help yourself | | Wednesday, July 23rd, 2003 | | 5:44 pm |
i was walking across the street and saw the carcass of a dead bird smashed into the road
and thought it odd... hte symbolism... "are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall except for the will of the Father." that's a verse talking about how God takes care of us, but it's also funny because i put to death a lot of things today. i went through my trunk that i use as a coffee table. it's one my grandma gave me quite a few years back. it's where i keep a lot of letters, cards, nic-nacs and miscellaneous junk. in it was a cookie tin, filled with old letters, all from old girlfriends/friends that i've mostly lost contact with. there must have been about 100 letters in there, and i read alomst every single one. it took me around 2 1/2 hours. after i read them, i promptly proceeded to throw them away. it felt good, seeing as how most of those letters were from extremely juvenile and dramatic situations, and most of them were before God radically changed my life. so i let go of a lot of htings today. it still feels werid, but it felt good. Now, the girl i dated 8 times on seperate occasions, my first kiss, the one i was going to marry, is nothing but memories. She hasn't contacted me in over 2 years. I've tried countless times to get in touch with her, driving through her town on my way to Billings, calling, emailing. nothing but errors for disconnected numbers and unanswered letters. anyway, so i'm feeling a bit strange now, and reminiscent and i hope it passes, because it's not too much fun to think of things that could have been and to still want them to sometimes be that way. yet i still know better, i wouldn't give anything to feel the way i did back then. ::end pointless post:: but it is after all, MY livejournal... ;) God bless you all. ~Casey | | Monday, July 21st, 2003 | | 4:09 pm |
boo yah!
WHO HAS 402 PLAYS ON THEIR MP3.COM SITE??????????????? ME, THAT'S WHO! can ya FEELIT? UH! ~Casey | | Friday, July 18th, 2003 | | 4:59 pm |
oh wow...
LyricalSuSpecT21: im goneeeeeeeeeeee LyricalSuSpecT21: lomao mybr0k3Nw1nGz: lol mybr0k3Nw1nGz: who dis? LyricalSuSpecT21: suspect LyricalSuSpecT21: cs LyricalSuSpecT21: counter strike LyricalSuSpecT21: ahhaha LyricalSuSpecT21: I can type when im drunk LyricalSuSpecT21: aahahahaha LyricalSuSpecT21: this is so nice mybr0k3Nw1nGz: uh ok LyricalSuSpecT21: did u c the elephant @ utr hose LyricalSuSpecT21: ? LyricalSuSpecT21: ahahhaa LyricalSuSpecT21: its pissing on u mom LyricalSuSpecT21: ahahahaa mybr0k3Nw1nGz: wow, that was a profound statement uh... i don't really know what to say. that was pretty funny. lol ~Casey | | Tuesday, July 15th, 2003 | | 11:20 pm |
woo. update check out my mp3.com site www.mp3.com/the_faceless see that pimp drawing in the corner? yeah it was done by this awesome friend of mine, [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<a href"http://nancy0.deviantart.com/">') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] woo. update check out my mp3.com site www.mp3.com/the_faceless see that pimp drawing in the corner? yeah it was done by this awesome friend of mine, <a href"http://nancy0.deviantart.com/">jenna</a>. she kicks butt. and SARAH emailed me! *does a happy dance* and i'm moving to cedar rapids, iowa!!! *does a happier dance* life is good. i can't wait to get out of South Dakota. god bless ~Casey | | Tuesday, July 1st, 2003 | | 7:37 pm |
"i finally found that life goes on without you and the world still turns when you're not around" anberlin -'naive orleans' amen to that. ~Casey | | Friday, June 20th, 2003 | | 10:14 pm |
just got home from junior high camp! being a counselor is so much fun. i love the jr. high kids so much because they have so much energy and mostly show alot of repsect for their counselors and stuff... not so much the sr. high kids, plus they're so dramatic... anyway. i met some girls fro North Central University in minneapolis. they were their telling people about college and were counselors for junior high camp. they were some cool people. jessi- she was the girls counselor for our team (the BLUE team baby!). she was a cool chick, and held her breath under water for 1:40 during a breath holding contest for rec time at camp. wow. that's insane. rachel- she's just cool. she was really sociable and had a great sense of humor. she was (i think) a junior in college and had never had a boyfriend in her life. sara(h)- casey has a crush. 'nuff said. <3 i gave all three of them my email address, i hope they stay in touch. they were all really cool. other than that it was an awesome time hanging out with the kids. my worship band played worship for all the night services, and that was really awesome. we like to rock our songs out pretty hard, and i think the kids really liked the energy we had. we got many compliments and it was really refreshing to see something so positive. a lot of things around this town are so dead, it was great to see some life for a change. something positive. anyway, that's about it for me. time to go and be lazy and stuff. ~Casey | | Tuesday, June 10th, 2003 | | 3:36 pm |
wee hoo! i'm naked!
ok, not really. so get this. my computer gets a nasty virus. casey backs up stuff, and reformats. casey gets back up on the net with a clean install of windows 98 and updates Norton Antivirus and guess what? THE VIRUS APPEARS AGAIN!!! it's in the update for my ANTIVIRUS program. how gay is that? so now i have a 20 pound paperweight until i can replace my now fried harddrive. the past few days have not been fun technology-wise. so if i haven';t replied to emails or seemed to have dropped off the face of the planet, that's why. so, here i go. anyone got explosives? my computer needs to be blowed up. ~Casey | | Wednesday, May 28th, 2003 | | 12:30 pm |
heavy sighs and turning stomachs
my stomach has been turning all day... i'm really worried about sarah. she's been seeing this kid who's into drugs and drinking. i know she hasn't been to church in like 6 months.. i hate this. why does it seem that everyone i care about is turning their back on God? it makes me sad... and it makes me scared. some of these people that i admired most, spiritually, just walk away. people that seemed to have more faith than me. and i wish i could say i was stronger than that. i wish i could say that i knew my faith would carry me through and that i would come out the other side ok, faith in-tact. but i can't. there's no certainties for me, because i am human. the only thing i can do is keep digging as hard as i can into God and hoping against all hope that the faith He has given me won't fail me. i know God would never fail me. but i know that my flesh is weak. God help me... help us all. ~Casey Current Mood:  discontentCurrent Music: skillet- 'rest' | | Monday, May 26th, 2003 | | 8:39 pm |
would everyone hated me if i started a glam rock band?
haha it's funny... the bands i want to start... one would have to be a shoegazer/glam mellowed out band, and the other would have to be insane and technical metalcore. i think for the metalcore band i'd be more of a band whore than anyhting. not really writing a whole lot, just in the background playing guitar. but the glam/shoegazer would be all me. i'm a strange cookie, i think. anyone want to make some techno? ~Casey | | Thursday, May 22nd, 2003 | | 10:22 pm |
WhisperAshes: So what do you wanna talk about. mybr0k3Nw1nGz: spoons. mybr0k3Nw1nGz: do you eat cereal with a big spoon or a little spoon? WhisperAshes: good for eating? WhisperAshes: lol mybr0k3Nw1nGz: haha WhisperAshes: little usually lol WhisperAshes: what about yourself lol mybr0k3Nw1nGz: if my mouth were big enough, i'd use a cooking spoon WhisperAshes: lol mybr0k3Nw1nGz: i'm not kidding mybr0k3Nw1nGz: i'd shovel that stuff in somethin fierce lol just thought i'd share that. so what's YOUR take on spoons? you like big ones or little ones? ~Casey | | 7:45 pm |
too good, too good...
 this was too great to not post. www.disasse,blance.com as if the world needs ANOTHER webcomic haha... God bless ~Casey Current Music: audio paradox- "t'shuvah" | | Thursday, May 15th, 2003 | | 12:59 pm |
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